I'm so much older than I can take "I used to write from 2002-2008. Now I'm contemplating whether to start rambling again..(2020)"
Thursday, December 29
Tuesday, December 6
Friday, November 11
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
To finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
And catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave
Yeahhh...
And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do
Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united
Healthy or insane
And to be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do
Even when you've paid enough
Been pulled apart or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of love
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
¨
But to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do
Ohhhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heeey...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can do
whew.
that was some holiday.
around 15 days back in kampung.
damn, i almost didn't came back here.
even though the activities back home
consisted of eating, staying up late
and waking even way later, it was still
on my 'eager-to-do-in-kampung' list.
the total abandon....ahhh..
to be frank, i didn't came back home
for 15 days to celebrate. i just want
to veg out, man. just decompress.
now i'm back in the office, slowly
building up pressure...
raya this year was quite an event, even
though i hadn't plan it to be so. quite
a number of friends came to the sort-of
'impromptu' gathering session at my
house. some of them brought spouses,
girlfriends, 'girl'-friends.
it was a good attendance.
Saturday, November 5
Tuesday, October 25
i always get misty-eyed.
it seems that this month has a penchant for
bringing out the melancholic streak in some
freaks. or normal guys n gals.
no discrimination here.
it is true that you can never do what you
did in ramadan. i, for example, would never
puasa on a 'sunat' basis. i'm not that
strong. if it's wajib, i'll do it. if it's
not, no sir..three bags full.
yes, it's a challenge to wake up and eat and
then go back to sleep again. it's hard not
to when you still got 1,2 hours of darkness
and you're groggy...and bloated, for that
matter...now, i do not subscribe to the
whole 'sahur' thing anymore. i'd just munch
on a biscuit and down a glass of water, and
i'm good for the day. what i really do is
i'd eat at 11pm until i'm full...well, full
is really stretching the truth as i'd just
eat as what a normal skinny guy would.
i just eat at 11pm.
it's kind of hard since you tend to munch
everything except for the kitchen sink as
soon as the azan is heard.
i just consume bubur lambuk.
with telur masin.
and some papaddams.
and anchovies.
my intestines are really having a vacation
in this ramadan.
you'll be working overtime soon, punks !!!
Monday, October 24
Friday, October 21
this cartoon never failed to
crack me up, man.it's like
good porn...
right now i'm supposed to be in my car,
driving home..
but i'm still at the office, waiting for
my turn in a meeting...it's apparently a
negotiation meeting with contractors to
fine-tune a few things in the contract
document...i know, it's shit-laden but
...what the hey, right?
it's the fasting month and one has to
be patient...up until maghrib...
Monday, October 17
Tuesday, October 4
where o where have you been, my love?
where o where can you be?
it's been so long, since the moon has gone
and o what a wreck you've made me
are you there over the ocean?
are you there up in the sky?
until the return of my love
this lullaby
my hope is on the horizon
every face, it's your eyes i can see
i plead, i pray through each night and day
our embrace is only a dream
and as sure as days come from moments
each hour becomes a life's time
when she'd left
i'd only begun this lullaby
Monday, October 3
Friday, September 16
do was be good at learning and stuff, and
all the other shit doesn't really apply to
you?
those were good times, man.
sometimes i long for the time when simple
was the way of life, and it's the only way.
a few months back, i was in the conversation
with my grandpa and an expat, and he
reminisced about the times when kedah was a
very basic state. yes. a few anecdotes were
there. he said at that time there so few
road accidents. what's there to die for?
there's almost no cars, motors and all the
other dangerous stuff you'd find now.
everybody knows everybody, so you can't
steal stuff or any of that evil shit. and
at anytime, you could swim in the (clean)
river. he said that even though he's rich
now, he wished that he could go back to the
simpler life in kedah. could you believe it.
i'm somewhat struck by the fact that it was
not the achievements that mattered, but more
towards the every-day aspects of living.
bla bla bla.
true though.
Tuesday, September 13
close your eyes and see the sky is falling
close your eyes and see the sky is falling
it's been a shamble of a week for me. it seems
that my workload is going up versus the clarity
is getting lower.
this is goin to be a fucked up week.
well, you can't win always, huh?
Wednesday, September 7
Tuesday, September 6
~ home
2. my name is
~ mi
3. they say i
~ aloof
4. yesterday
~ was worse than today
5. last person who missed called?
~ my grandpa
6. last person you called?
~ me mum
7. last name in your received calls
~ me mum
8. how old are you?
~ 25 years young
9. what song is playing?
~ queens of the stone age's go with the flow
10. last thing i drank?
~ livita
11. last thing i bought
~ jvc ctv 21"
12. i want
~ to live on an island all by myself
13. i really hate
~ smelly faeces
14. i have a crush on
~ monica belucci
15. i like
~ violent pornography, choking chicks and sodomy.
the kind of shit you get on your tv.
HAVE YOU EVER
1. got wasted?
~ in my head. yes
2. ran away?
~ i'm in the middle of running away from myself
3. broken someone's heart ?
~ i'm a serial heart-breaker
4. had ur heart broken?
~ all the time. none of them healed
5. cried when someone died?
~ not anymore
6. broken a bone?
~ is my heart a bone?
7. cried in school?
~ always
THIS OR THAT
1. coke or pepsi?
~ co co co co co cocaine
2. sprite or 7up?
~ tea o ice
3. flowers or candies?
~ honda integra
4. quiet or loud?
~ deafening silence
5. blondes or brunettes?
~ both. with me in between. yummy.
6. tall or short?
~ tall...
7.jeans or shorts?
~ naked or nude
WHAT/WHO IS
1. ur good luck charm?
~ my penis
2. person u hate most?
~ myself
3. fave number/s?
~ zero
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE
1. color/s?
~ white
2. movie/s?
~ 9 songs
3. book?
~ al-quran
4. subject/s in school
~ math
5. holiday/s?
~ weekends
6. season?
~ mango
WHO or WHAT
1. makes u laugh d most?
~ comedy
2. makes u smile?
~ the muscle surrounding my mouth
3. has a crush on u?
~ i don't know, damn it
DO YOU EVER
1. sit by d phone waiting for a call
~ all the time
2. save messenger conversations?
~ save it and lost
3. save emails?
~ only business.
4. wish u were someone else?
~ yep. i wish i was u
Monday, September 5
L’ Via
Hija de Miranda
Tu apellido se cambió
L’ Via
Sin ojos me quieres dar
Una historia sin mi madre
Solo tengo que decirte
El dolor de noche dice
"Solo se quedó el vestido
Le lavé la sangre"
L’ Via
No dejes de descansar
En la calle caminas
¿Quién te va a perseguir?
L’ Via
Te quieren matar
Dientes de machete
Cabezas de gallo
L’ Via
Durmiendo en paz
Abre los ojos
Todo cambiará
L’ Via
Sonado de venganza
Yo te lo juro
lo van a pagar
Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for
L ‘ Via
Hija de Miranda
Tu apellido se cambió
L’ Via
Sin ojos me quieres dar
Una historia sin mi madre
Solo tengo que desirte
El dolor de noche dice
"Solo se quedó el vestido
Le lavé la sangre"
Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for
Solo tengo una hora
y me duermo terminado
por veinticinco años pasaron
siguen los cuerpos aqui temblando
tomé la sangre
comí del cuerpo
mis lágrimas
quebró el espejo
When all the worms come crawling out your head
Telling you: "don’t you be afraid"
When all the worms come crawling out your head
Telling you: "Don’t you be afraid"
Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
Shark kites got tangled in the moleskin
Urgent plea of escape
A mouth to mouth on the chalkboard
Written in fingernail distaste
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for
Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for
Saturday, August 13
Tuesday, August 9
Saturday, July 30
Friday, July 22
Friday, July 1
Wednesday, June 29
Thursday, June 23
Wednesday, June 22
Monday, June 20
Sprünge auf der Decke
gekrümmte Abbildungen im Kopf
Countin und breathin, lasse ich hier morgen Weise unten niedrig, ich tue Sie nie, die jedes gute Laughin einfach ist, ich wurde, wenn ich könnte
Nicht gerade Phasen laufen lassen, bis Sie sterben, möchten mit Nirgendwo ertrinken, um in die Arme von jemand zu fallen wird ist nichts, mich zu speichern kennen Sie Phasen, bis Sie sterben
Leben Sie bis Sie sterben, ich weiß Das Lösen von von feelin, aber von von mir konnte nicht die Weise erhalten?? Countin und breathin, disappearin in verblassen niederlegen Tief, ich tun Sie nie jedes gute Stoppin und stayin, wurde ich, wenn ich könnte
Tuesday, June 14
Countin and breathin, I'm leaving here tomorrow
Way down low, I never do you any good
Laughin is easy, I would if I could
Ain't gonna run
Just live till you die, wanna drown
With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone
There's nothing to save I know
You live till you die
Live till you die, I know
Loosing feelin, but I couldn't get the way ??
Countin and breathin, disappearin in the fade
Lay down low, I never do you any good
Stoppin and stayin, I would if I could
Ain't gonna run
Just live till you die, wanna drown
With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone
There's nothing to save I know
You live till you die
Tuesday, May 31
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Friday, May 13
car with the stereo cranked up to the good ol' number eleven.
it was relieving and soothing to hear, but after only a day, i got kind of jaded and fazed to
the sound. not even probot's and qotsa's latest can invoke the feeling back. i'm somewhat
kind of disappointed by the fact that i'm not enjoying what i should be, which is music.
then i got to the internet and some online cd purchasing, and i got to take a look at some
new music, namely:-
foo fighters,white stripes,garbage,SOAD,missy higgins,john legend,beck,mars volta
yeah, it was good news to hear that these guys are releasing new music soon, but i'm a
bit impatient. so i got back to alor star and searched some pirates (good ol',good ol')
i got SOAD and john legend. and i tell ya, when i heard the opening track to SOAD's
mesmerize.......it all came back....even more when i heard john legend's 'used to
love you'.....uff..feeling gila....
Monday, May 9
Thursday, May 5
Tuesday, May 3
to kl in about 45 mins. i came out from a flight from ethiopia to dubai, and from
dubai to s'pore. i realized that i travelled for close to 24 hours man....feh...
still, the journey doesn't end here. i still have a few deliverables to follow-up,
and it's most probably long term, with me shuttling to and fro m'sia and
overseas......it will be exhausting.
well, at least the chicks overseas are easy on the eyes....