it is kind of strange being in ethiopia, doing civil construction.

pian's wedding, 3rd Dec 2005.

I wasn't there.

I was in Ethiopia.

Still.

tuan2 dan puan2.

selamat datang ke rancangan selamat pagi ethiopia.

dalam 15 minit ini, saya akan menyajikan kepada anda berita
terkini, sensasi dan menarik dari bumi ethiopia.

jangan ke mana2.

shukur's wedding in kubang semang.
19 december 2005 at the groom's house.

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
To finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
And catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

Yeahhh...

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united
Healthy or insane

And to be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do

Even when you've paid enough
Been pulled apart or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of love
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
¨
But to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do

Ohhhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heeey...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can do



whew.

that was some holiday.

around 15 days back in kampung.

damn, i almost didn't came back here.
even though the activities back home
consisted of eating, staying up late
and waking even way later, it was still
on my 'eager-to-do-in-kampung' list.

the total abandon....ahhh..

to be frank, i didn't came back home
for 15 days to celebrate. i just want
to veg out, man. just decompress.

now i'm back in the office, slowly
building up pressure...

raya this year was quite an event, even
though i hadn't plan it to be so. quite
a number of friends came to the sort-of
'impromptu' gathering session at my
house. some of them brought spouses,
girlfriends, 'girl'-friends.

it was a good attendance.

selamat hari raya to all my friends.

forgive me of all my sins and shortcomings.

i love you to bits.

ya know, when it comes to the end of ramadan,
i always get misty-eyed.

it seems that this month has a penchant for
bringing out the melancholic streak in some
freaks. or normal guys n gals.

no discrimination here.

it is true that you can never do what you
did in ramadan. i, for example, would never
puasa on a 'sunat' basis. i'm not that
strong. if it's wajib, i'll do it. if it's
not, no sir..three bags full.

yes, it's a challenge to wake up and eat and
then go back to sleep again. it's hard not
to when you still got 1,2 hours of darkness
and you're groggy...and bloated, for that
matter...now, i do not subscribe to the
whole 'sahur' thing anymore. i'd just munch
on a biscuit and down a glass of water, and
i'm good for the day. what i really do is
i'd eat at 11pm until i'm full...well, full
is really stretching the truth as i'd just
eat as what a normal skinny guy would.

i just eat at 11pm.

it's kind of hard since you tend to munch
everything except for the kitchen sink as
soon as the azan is heard.

i just consume bubur lambuk.

with telur masin.

and some papaddams.

and anchovies.

my intestines are really having a vacation
in this ramadan.

you'll be working overtime soon, punks !!!

to all the people that i've sinned before,
please mail me with a list of my sins,
for i am to apologise for my actions,
failing of which, i will be burnt in hell.

so please reply.

you know where.

this cartoon never failed to
crack me up, man.it's like
good porn...

right now i'm supposed to be in my car,
driving home..

but i'm still at the office, waiting for
my turn in a meeting...it's apparently a
negotiation meeting with contractors to
fine-tune a few things in the contract
document...i know, it's shit-laden but
...what the hey, right?

it's the fasting month and one has to
be patient...up until maghrib...

Flatulence can be considered humorous to
some people, either due to the scent or
the sounds produced. Some find humor in
lighting farts, which is possible due to
the presence of flammables, such as methane,
though the process is very dangerous and
can result in internal anal combustion.

where o where have you been, my love?
where o where can you be?
it's been so long, since the moon has gone
and o what a wreck you've made me

are you there over the ocean?
are you there up in the sky?
until the return of my love
this lullaby

my hope is on the horizon
every face, it's your eyes i can see
i plead, i pray through each night and day
our embrace is only a dream

and as sure as days come from moments
each hour becomes a life's time
when she'd left
i'd only begun this lullaby

it's been exhausting work, preparing for
these 'exploration' activities in Ethiopia.

there is not much work, but dealing with
people....

ugh....

makes me wanna shoot myself in the head

shoot
shoot
shoot
pow!

all moist and wet...

do you remember the time when all you had to
do was be good at learning and stuff, and
all the other shit doesn't really apply to
you?

those were good times, man.

sometimes i long for the time when simple
was the way of life, and it's the only way.

a few months back, i was in the conversation
with my grandpa and an expat, and he
reminisced about the times when kedah was a
very basic state. yes. a few anecdotes were
there. he said at that time there so few
road accidents. what's there to die for?
there's almost no cars, motors and all the
other dangerous stuff you'd find now.
everybody knows everybody, so you can't
steal stuff or any of that evil shit. and
at anytime, you could swim in the (clean)
river. he said that even though he's rich
now, he wished that he could go back to the
simpler life in kedah. could you believe it.

i'm somewhat struck by the fact that it was
not the achievements that mattered, but more
towards the every-day aspects of living.

bla bla bla.

true though.

close your eyes and see the sky is falling
close your eyes and see the sky is falling
close your eyes and see the sky is falling

it's been a shamble of a week for me. it seems
that my workload is going up versus the clarity
is getting lower.

this is goin to be a fucked up week.

well, you can't win always, huh?

1. last place i've been
~ home

2. my name is
~ mi

3. they say i
~ aloof

4. yesterday
~ was worse than today

5. last person who missed called?
~ my grandpa

6. last person you called?
~ me mum

7. last name in your received calls
~ me mum

8. how old are you?
~ 25 years young

9. what song is playing?
~ queens of the stone age's go with the flow

10. last thing i drank?
~ livita

11. last thing i bought
~ jvc ctv 21"

12. i want
~ to live on an island all by myself

13. i really hate
~ smelly faeces

14. i have a crush on
~ monica belucci

15. i like
~ violent pornography, choking chicks and sodomy.
the kind of shit you get on your tv.

HAVE YOU EVER
1. got wasted?
~ in my head. yes

2. ran away?
~ i'm in the middle of running away from myself

3. broken someone's heart ?
~ i'm a serial heart-breaker

4. had ur heart broken?
~ all the time. none of them healed

5. cried when someone died?
~ not anymore

6. broken a bone?
~ is my heart a bone?

7. cried in school?
~ always

THIS OR THAT

1. coke or pepsi?
~ co co co co co cocaine

2. sprite or 7up?
~ tea o ice

3. flowers or candies?
~ honda integra

4. quiet or loud?
~ deafening silence

5. blondes or brunettes?
~ both. with me in between. yummy.

6. tall or short?
~ tall...

7.jeans or shorts?
~ naked or nude

WHAT/WHO IS

1. ur good luck charm?
~ my penis

2. person u hate most?
~ myself

3. fave number/s?
~ zero

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE
1. color/s?
~ white

2. movie/s?
~ 9 songs

3. book?
~ al-quran

4. subject/s in school
~ math

5. holiday/s?
~ weekends

6. season?
~ mango

WHO or WHAT

1. makes u laugh d most?
~ comedy

2. makes u smile?
~ the muscle surrounding my mouth

3. has a crush on u?
~ i don't know, damn it

DO YOU EVER

1. sit by d phone waiting for a call
~ all the time

2. save messenger conversations?
~ save it and lost

3. save emails?
~ only business.

4. wish u were someone else?
~ yep. i wish i was u

L’ Via
Hija de Miranda
Tu apellido se cambió
L’ Via
Sin ojos me quieres dar
Una historia sin mi madre
Solo tengo que decirte
El dolor de noche dice
"Solo se quedó el vestido
Le lavé la sangre"

L’ Via
No dejes de descansar
En la calle caminas
¿Quién te va a perseguir?
L’ Via
Te quieren matar
Dientes de machete
Cabezas de gallo
L’ Via
Durmiendo en paz
Abre los ojos
Todo cambiará
L’ Via
Sonado de venganza
Yo te lo juro
lo van a pagar

Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for

L ‘ Via
Hija de Miranda
Tu apellido se cambió
L’ Via
Sin ojos me quieres dar
Una historia sin mi madre
Solo tengo que desirte
El dolor de noche dice
"Solo se quedó el vestido
Le lavé la sangre"

Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for

Solo tengo una hora
y me duermo terminado
por veinticinco años pasaron
siguen los cuerpos aqui temblando
tomé la sangre
comí del cuerpo
mis lágrimas
quebró el espejo

When all the worms come crawling out your head
Telling you: "don’t you be afraid"
When all the worms come crawling out your head
Telling you: "Don’t you be afraid"

Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
Shark kites got tangled in the moleskin
Urgent plea of escape
A mouth to mouth on the chalkboard
Written in fingernail distaste 
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for

Blackmailed,
she fell off every mountain
The ones they tightly wrapped in tape
In her eraser sang the guilty
As it behead the best mistakes
And with everybody that I find
And with every claymore that they mine
I won’t forget who I’m looking for
Oh mother, help me I’m looking for

i have a headache
i have a fucking blinding headache

i'm trying to upload a pix in photobucket but i can't.
shit.

cómo pathetic es mi vida?

la respuesta miente en el hecho de que este poste fue escrito el sábado,
de mi PC en la oficina

a volte, gradisco ottenersi occupato con le mansioni mentre non wan't sono caricato
dal fatto che la vita ottiene a volte così dolce, voi potrei notare che la vita
non è che cosa la vita ha usato essere.

ieri giusto ho ottenuto un glimpse di ché monster sono diventato.

i'm in a cc right now.

i sent my car for service, and it cost about three hundred plus.

fuck.

ha sido un viaje loco para mí para las últimas tres semanas. he estado en el carnaval de los deportes por dos semanas y he estado al miri en un tiro. soy enfermo ahora con gripe.

algunos pudieron decir que el ser solo es la decisión más dolorosa que usted tiene que tomar....

pienso tan también.

la mayoría del tiempo acabo de no hacer caso del dolor

la educación es tan coja cuando usted perra y usted me gimen se sienten así que cogio' -para arriba hoy

life is truly a motherfucker

no me estoy sintiendo demasiado sano ahora. acabo de viajar el equivalente de la anchura malaysian, hacia adelante y atrás en apenas 1 día obviamente, mi cuerpo que no toleraba ese abuso muy bien. pissed absolutamente de ése que la multitud prevista no entró apagado en tiempo, pero una cierta parte de mí estaba alegre, en parte porque soy underprepared para la tarea. ¡no obstante, pissed porque tuve que volver algo del dinero anticipado que demandé terriblemente!!

i went to labuan yesterday only to discover that the vessel is delayed by 4 days.

life is truly a motherfucker.

Sprünge auf der Decke

gekrümmte Abbildungen im Kopf

Countin und breathin, lasse ich hier morgen Weise unten niedrig, ich tue Sie nie, die jedes gute Laughin einfach ist, ich wurde, wenn ich könnte

Nicht gerade Phasen laufen lassen, bis Sie sterben, möchten mit Nirgendwo ertrinken, um in die Arme von jemand zu fallen wird ist nichts, mich zu speichern kennen Sie Phasen, bis Sie sterben

Leben Sie bis Sie sterben, ich weiß Das Lösen von von feelin, aber von von mir konnte nicht die Weise erhalten?? Countin und breathin, disappearin in verblassen niederlegen Tief, ich tun Sie nie jedes gute Stoppin und stayin, wurde ich, wenn ich könnte

Nicht gerade Phasen laufen lassen, bis Sie sterben, möchten mit Nirgendwo ertrinken, um in die Arme von jemand zu fallen wird ist nichts, mich zu speichern kennen Sie Phasen, bis Sie sterben

Cracks in the ceiling, crooked pictures in the heart
Countin and breathin, I'm leaving here tomorrow
Way down low, I never do you any good
Laughin is easy, I would if I could


Ain't gonna run
Just live till you die, wanna drown
With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone
There's nothing to save I know
You live till you die


Live till you die, I know

Loosing feelin, but I couldn't get the way ??
Countin and breathin, disappearin in the fade
Lay down low, I never do you any good
Stoppin and stayin, I would if I could


Ain't gonna run
Just live till you die, wanna drown
With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone
There's nothing to save I know
You live till you die

Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol
Nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Ectasy and Alcohol

ya know, when i returned to kl after ethiopia, the first thing i did was to have a drive in my
car with the stereo cranked up to the good ol' number eleven.

it was relieving and soothing to hear, but after only a day, i got kind of jaded and fazed to
the sound. not even probot's and qotsa's latest can invoke the feeling back. i'm somewhat
kind of disappointed by the fact that i'm not enjoying what i should be, which is music.

then i got to the internet and some online cd purchasing, and i got to take a look at some
new music, namely:-

foo fighters,white stripes,garbage,SOAD,missy higgins,john legend,beck,mars volta

yeah, it was good news to hear that these guys are releasing new music soon, but i'm a
bit impatient. so i got back to alor star and searched some pirates (good ol',good ol')

i got SOAD and john legend. and i tell ya, when i heard the opening track to SOAD's
mesmerize.......it all came back....even more when i heard john legend's 'used to
love you'.....uff..feeling gila....

right now it's 9pm malaysian time. i'm in changi. i'll be boarding the next flight
to kl in about 45 mins. i came out from a flight from ethiopia to dubai, and from
dubai to s'pore. i realized that i travelled for close to 24 hours man....feh...

still, the journey doesn't end here. i still have a few deliverables to follow-up,
and it's most probably long term, with me shuttling to and fro m'sia and
overseas......it will be exhausting.

well, at least the chicks overseas are easy on the eyes....

who would'v thought, i'd reach sudan and ethiopia??

shit man.

here i am in addis ababa, in petronas office....fuck.

it's beyond the wildest dream, man.

tomorrow i'm goin to the border ethiopia-sudan...

i wish i'll be back in one piece.

some visuals from a wet-t competition to get all you gals worked up today



little sister
shake your blood
little sister
shake your blood

i just got me-self some new music.