i thought i'd write something.

these past few months (i'm not quite sure about using the word 'few') have been good.
and by 'good' i'm obviously not using the usual standards when measuring 'goodness'.
i've been fairly dormant and very passive in approaching life recently, and i did that just
because i'd like to feel what it's like to be a 'ghost', watching people, time and events
pass you by. i also had a chance, a glimpse if you'd prefer, of what a recluse is, just
like a very close person i haven't seen for a long time, and probably never will again.
that, and i paid tribute to friend of mine who, not a long time ago, was in a somewhat
similar situation to me. another reason is, i've been thinking (thinking is dangerous)
that i've been doing things so fast, and i need to stop and let the world catch up.
(alasan paling poyo sekali)

from the knowledge point of view, i've never learned so much in such a short span of
time. well, most of it was trivial, anyways. but not to me. as long as the piece of info
enlightens you, it's not trivial. kudos to all of you out there who sacrificed your time,
so that i can waste mine. i think i've made the most of mine, and now i'd like to move
on.so, you'll be hearing less and less of me from this point on.

some (or none) might ask, 'why doesn't this bloke write about music?'. i am going to,
ya POS! well, it seems that i'm going through the 'soundgarden phase' and there's nothing
but 'garden mp3s lying on the ol' winamp playlist. if you'd like a sample of what 'garden's
all about, i'd recommend 'superunknown', their mega-selling album. or if you'd prefer a
song, my personal choice'd be 'jesus christ pose'. now please don't accuse me of being a
heretic. the song's just gonna pound you and pound you and pound you to the wall.
there you go.....another person fleeing...he he..

if you're appaled by the way i run this blog 'ere, i respect your opinion; it counts. i'm
not too enthusiastic bout writing happy thoughts, kids running through the meadows,
couples kissing passionately ( i can see barfing already), and all that shit. maybe
there's hope for me somewhere in the future, or in the next life (kidding).
don't be scared.

talking of being scary, i thought i'd mention something i saw in the TV a week earlier.
it's the scariest shit i've ever seen and it's not a ghost or apparition. it's real. i think
most of you'd seen it in channel 71 mtv.
it was 'behind the music - redhotchillipeppers' and it's halfway through and it's about
john frusciante's deep plunge into heroine addiction when he left the band.
words don't do justice here. you'v to see it to believe it.
his skin was a pale shade of yellow, almost like a jaundice patient, and the linings of
his fingernails was red.his hands and arms was full of puncture marks, obviously from
injecting drugs into the veins.his face was clear and the cheeks was concave.his eyes
look like they've never closed in a million years. the way he talks, you'd predict him
dead in hours. you think that's scary? now picture this:

picture that everyday for six years.

his condition was so severe that, when john frusciante emerged from rehab he can't
speak properly.his speach's slurred. he lost all his teeth. he spent close to 70k for
a new set of teeth. his arms are full of abcess marks.

now go watch MISTIK and tell me if that shit is scary.

i think that's it. i'v got an essay to finish, nanti cikgu denda berdiri atas kerusi kalau
tak siap.