here i am, in a cc in dubai, with a pc and a high-speed internet connection.this is heaven.surely.
i think i'd might come back.

du-bye.

sunyi gila.
semua orang sudah belah daa.
i'm about to too.

We get some rules to follow
That and this
These and those
No one knows

We get these pills to swallow
How they stick
In your throat
Tastes like gold

Oh, what you do to me
No one knows

And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool of mine
And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool of mine
Ahh

I journey through the desert
Of the mind
With no hope
I found low

I drift along the ocean
Dead lifeboats in the sun
And come undone

Pleasently caving in
I come undone

And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool of mine
And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool and mine
Ahhh

Heaven smiles above me
What a gift there below
But no one knows

A gift that you give to me
No one knows


salam maal hijrah, yo!

ada satu saudagar yahudi
tinggal di-dalam negri italy
makan bunga kuat skali
di-mana pergi orang benchi

pasal pujok serta temberang
nama shylock banyak terang
pegang gadai amek barang
yahudi ini pandai saorang

bagaimana orang tak benchi
kapada ini satu yahudi
dia sperti satu gergaji
sorong makan kanan kiri

antara belom lidah-nya kelu
belom minom mahu mabok dahulu
kemdian minom bagi selalu
simpang lorong buleh di-lalu

mabok sedikit banyak mulot
tahan jugak dia bergelot
yang mabok sunggoh maki berkalot
hal-nya dia terjoon selot

these are some lyrics from a song that i found very intriguing and unique.
it's 'gravedigger' from dave matthews band

gravedigger
when you dig my grave
make it shallow
so that i can feel the rain
gravedigger
when you dig my grave
make it shallow
so that i can feel the rain
gravedigger
gravedigger

deep.very deep.


oh yeah......happy valentine's day kepada semua orang yang happy.

my mum's car broke down, so i fetched her from the office on my bike.
the car's in total shambles.

i'm not just deaf and dumb
i'm staring at the sun

i thought i'd write something.

these past few months (i'm not quite sure about using the word 'few') have been good.
and by 'good' i'm obviously not using the usual standards when measuring 'goodness'.
i've been fairly dormant and very passive in approaching life recently, and i did that just
because i'd like to feel what it's like to be a 'ghost', watching people, time and events
pass you by. i also had a chance, a glimpse if you'd prefer, of what a recluse is, just
like a very close person i haven't seen for a long time, and probably never will again.
that, and i paid tribute to friend of mine who, not a long time ago, was in a somewhat
similar situation to me. another reason is, i've been thinking (thinking is dangerous)
that i've been doing things so fast, and i need to stop and let the world catch up.
(alasan paling poyo sekali)

from the knowledge point of view, i've never learned so much in such a short span of
time. well, most of it was trivial, anyways. but not to me. as long as the piece of info
enlightens you, it's not trivial. kudos to all of you out there who sacrificed your time,
so that i can waste mine. i think i've made the most of mine, and now i'd like to move
on.so, you'll be hearing less and less of me from this point on.

some (or none) might ask, 'why doesn't this bloke write about music?'. i am going to,
ya POS! well, it seems that i'm going through the 'soundgarden phase' and there's nothing
but 'garden mp3s lying on the ol' winamp playlist. if you'd like a sample of what 'garden's
all about, i'd recommend 'superunknown', their mega-selling album. or if you'd prefer a
song, my personal choice'd be 'jesus christ pose'. now please don't accuse me of being a
heretic. the song's just gonna pound you and pound you and pound you to the wall.
there you go.....another person fleeing...he he..

if you're appaled by the way i run this blog 'ere, i respect your opinion; it counts. i'm
not too enthusiastic bout writing happy thoughts, kids running through the meadows,
couples kissing passionately ( i can see barfing already), and all that shit. maybe
there's hope for me somewhere in the future, or in the next life (kidding).
don't be scared.

talking of being scary, i thought i'd mention something i saw in the TV a week earlier.
it's the scariest shit i've ever seen and it's not a ghost or apparition. it's real. i think
most of you'd seen it in channel 71 mtv.
it was 'behind the music - redhotchillipeppers' and it's halfway through and it's about
john frusciante's deep plunge into heroine addiction when he left the band.
words don't do justice here. you'v to see it to believe it.
his skin was a pale shade of yellow, almost like a jaundice patient, and the linings of
his fingernails was red.his hands and arms was full of puncture marks, obviously from
injecting drugs into the veins.his face was clear and the cheeks was concave.his eyes
look like they've never closed in a million years. the way he talks, you'd predict him
dead in hours. you think that's scary? now picture this:

picture that everyday for six years.

his condition was so severe that, when john frusciante emerged from rehab he can't
speak properly.his speach's slurred. he lost all his teeth. he spent close to 70k for
a new set of teeth. his arms are full of abcess marks.

now go watch MISTIK and tell me if that shit is scary.

i think that's it. i'v got an essay to finish, nanti cikgu denda berdiri atas kerusi kalau
tak siap.

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