chances are, if you'd read enough of my postings in this blog here, you've probably come to
a conclusion that the person behind the keyboard here's got some beef with the world, and
life, for that matter. he'd always be unhappy with the current situation and would try to pass
the buck to other party. well, that'd be partly true. i have a slightly (slightly is a major under-
statement here) pessimistic view of life. yes, i do. in the event of something, i'd almost always
expect the worst thing that could happen, and when it really happened, i wouldn't be so
disappointed. maybe it's because i'm used to the engineering's conservative point of view. you
know, the most severe loading, the least expected yield strength of materials, the most unlikely
combination of loads, etc.....structural engineers'd get what i'm blabbering about here.

the point is: i'm still wondering wether i'm still going to find happiness (or the other way round).
i thought of this when i attended one of my friend's wedding. he looked content and happy with
his spouse. from my point of view, the road he's heading is still long and winding, but deep
inside, i know he'll make it. everyone will.

or is the question provoked by my 'perpetual-hesitation-to-find-a-soulmate'-ness?
it was supposed to be so eeeeasy.......the streets.

pathetic story aside, yesterday i had a blast. i went to pak lan's kenduri at perlis. pi dua kali.
seriously, best gila jumpak member2 lama. high tak ingat. let's see..chai,mi,jamy,man,ijai,wadi,
dani,jibam,latip,abun,fakhrin,saf,mat telog,paklan (mesti la),syahrul,mad hashim,apek,najeb,
mijat ngan pian ada jugak, tapi depa chow awai. lepas tu semua lepak kat rumah apek, layan
sembang tak hingat, kutuk2, merapu macam haram....memetik kata2 mad hashim..."mana
nak dapat dah lepak ramai2 macam ni". so true, md hashim, so true.

lepas tu ramai2 pi hospital kangar tengok tempat kerja najeb. dia kerja kat kangar, tunang dia
kerja kat hosp alor star, akad sabtu (esok a), dan kenduri ahad ni kat sp. sayangnya i couldn't
attend. i've to beat the traffic this weekend, man. ralat gila. it was great seeing these guys
i hadn't seen in a long time, and catching up with 'em. semua perangai lebih kurang macam
lama jugak. mat telog kerja kat fertilizer gurun, saf kerja kat ipoh, abun kerja kat kl,
fakhrin tgh upsi lagi,apek kerja lecturer kat poli jitra,....yg lain dah cerita dah.

this is good.