i've just returned from a 3-day survival course at kelana jaya.mas academy centre. di mana semua awek2 meletup berkumpul. serius cuci mata tak hingat. tambah bila depa senyum kat kita pulak kan. peh.

kemudian baru aku teringat. memang la kerja depa senyum kat orang.

*pilu*.

anyways, course tu memang susah tak hingat. satu part tu, kita kena duduk dalam simulator helicopter, and dia dunk upside down dalam pool. kita duduk dalam tu restrained dengan seat belt kan, dengan terbalik la apa lagi la, memang disoriented tak hingat.

sebelum tu bakal2 stewardesses semua buat benda mcm tu jugak. time kami, instructor tu kata, jaga2 kalau hangpa telan air, telan sekali kencing pramugari....lawak lawak.

so, the course, ended late this afternoon.semua orang penat macam nak mampuih. tapi lepas tu lepak kat cafe, semua orang perati stewardesses masuk keluar cafe.....

pehh...

chances are, if you'd read enough of my postings in this blog here, you've probably come to
a conclusion that the person behind the keyboard here's got some beef with the world, and
life, for that matter. he'd always be unhappy with the current situation and would try to pass
the buck to other party. well, that'd be partly true. i have a slightly (slightly is a major under-
statement here) pessimistic view of life. yes, i do. in the event of something, i'd almost always
expect the worst thing that could happen, and when it really happened, i wouldn't be so
disappointed. maybe it's because i'm used to the engineering's conservative point of view. you
know, the most severe loading, the least expected yield strength of materials, the most unlikely
combination of loads, etc.....structural engineers'd get what i'm blabbering about here.

the point is: i'm still wondering wether i'm still going to find happiness (or the other way round).
i thought of this when i attended one of my friend's wedding. he looked content and happy with
his spouse. from my point of view, the road he's heading is still long and winding, but deep
inside, i know he'll make it. everyone will.

or is the question provoked by my 'perpetual-hesitation-to-find-a-soulmate'-ness?
it was supposed to be so eeeeasy.......the streets.

pathetic story aside, yesterday i had a blast. i went to pak lan's kenduri at perlis. pi dua kali.
seriously, best gila jumpak member2 lama. high tak ingat. let's see..chai,mi,jamy,man,ijai,wadi,
dani,jibam,latip,abun,fakhrin,saf,mat telog,paklan (mesti la),syahrul,mad hashim,apek,najeb,
mijat ngan pian ada jugak, tapi depa chow awai. lepas tu semua lepak kat rumah apek, layan
sembang tak hingat, kutuk2, merapu macam haram....memetik kata2 mad hashim..."mana
nak dapat dah lepak ramai2 macam ni". so true, md hashim, so true.

lepas tu ramai2 pi hospital kangar tengok tempat kerja najeb. dia kerja kat kangar, tunang dia
kerja kat hosp alor star, akad sabtu (esok a), dan kenduri ahad ni kat sp. sayangnya i couldn't
attend. i've to beat the traffic this weekend, man. ralat gila. it was great seeing these guys
i hadn't seen in a long time, and catching up with 'em. semua perangai lebih kurang macam
lama jugak. mat telog kerja kat fertilizer gurun, saf kerja kat ipoh, abun kerja kat kl,
fakhrin tgh upsi lagi,apek kerja lecturer kat poli jitra,....yg lain dah cerita dah.

this is good.

lupa nak habag pulak.

ada koleksi gambar kenduri pak lan kat www.photobucket.com

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raya turned out to be quite a drag for me. for the first time, i actually enjoyed puasa more than
raya. the other times, i just ignored both the same amount of ignorance. this time, i was quite
sad that i'd be fasting no more. raya came by and went just the same to me. i didn't even iron
my baju raya this time (well, it was in good condition).

i woke up late this morning and watched the one movie i've been trying to get my hands on,
'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind'. jim carey and kate winslet are in it. two of my favourite
thespians.excellent cast, excellent story, brilliant camera work, unique genre, what else can i
say? kongkang......

all things set aside, this is what you'd call great chemistry. it's as if they're both together in real
life.......ha ha ha...i'd like to insert something in parentheses here, but i'd rather not. it's about
jim involved with kate, and basically kate has erased her memories with jim. jim found out, and
heartbroken and all, decided that he'd get the same procedure. what you get in the movie is
basically the visual of what's happening in jim's head, and the proceeding erasure of kate in
it. mid-way through, he realizes that he's still in love with her, and they tried to avoid being
erased from the memories in jim's mind. some of their methods are quite funny, brilliant
at its most.

i almost forgot that it's basically a love story. something that i'd avoid at all cost.

go see it. i'd like for it to be the true story of my life, but i'd be just unbelievable.

i'd sure like it to be, though.

lapar nak mampuih time raya.

tomorrow i'd probably be home. tonight i'm leaving this (kind of lovable) city for qalha, and frankly i'm quite excited at the prospect of another road trip. obviously, i'm starting the journey at night.....the weather's cooler (i hope) and maybe, just maybe the road, not too full (again, i'm hoping for horned kittens here...)

previously, i entertained the thought of taking a flight to qalha and back, but certain complications made it impossible. wouldn't it be cool to get back home on a plane? (getting a bit of a high here)....on the other hand, it costs as much as ( if not more) the whole expense of driving back home. or is it the other way round? i know someday i'd travel by air, but it's just a mental thing really, not wanting to part with your hard-earned money (iye ke?)....i really have to get this inferiority complex sorted out, man. it's f**king bugging the hell out of me.

anyways, i know it's gonna be one hell of a holiday. i got some escalating work waiting for me (i'm not finishing it now, no matter how severe it's gonna get when i return, man).....and i need to get some rest after work, seriously. yesterday, i went to low yat for some things and i walked like crazy, and i went home at 10.30pm, tidor terus. sahur pun tak. peh.

anyways, selamat hari raya to anyone who knows me (or anyone who wished they hadn't knew me, he he) and i seek your apology for anything i've done. in return, i shall forgive you all for your weaknesses, you mere mortals...HA HA HA HA!!!!

i love all of you, dudes and dudettes.

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