this would probably be my last post.there'll be no more (free) internet after this.
thank you to those who've read my postings, thank you. should any of my posts
made you think for a while and reconsider your directions, bear in mind that none
of these posts are real.they are written while i am under the influence of heavy
medication.

yup.they're all just fragments of my imagination.including the last three sentences.

*grin*.

aaahhh.........the sweet stench of unemployment.....it makes you cringe in delight.

frantic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tock
frantic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tock
frantic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tock
frantic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tic-tock - frantic, St. Anger

a joyous occasin for my friend last wednesday.happy birthday,reenee.

tomorrow'd be my last day in the company.so i'll be changing contact phone numbers
(for the umpteenth time).no more bills, it's back to ol' faithful prepaid.

i think it's zero one two five three six double zero three four.i haven't activated it yet.

yup.another number to ignore.

ha ha ha.

l need some spiritual enlightenment.

domo.

it's been a while,and now i feel like writing.so this one's gonna be fucking long.get
your ganj out.he he he......

in about a week or so,i'm gonna be out of a job.a dud.some friends who knew about
this were surprised when they found out i haven't secured a new job yet.apparently,
their idea of quitting a job is to get a better (paying) job.right,fellas.i'm not quite happy
with my current post right now,whereas my decisions as an engineer are not respected
enough.i know i'm a rookie and all,but you have to learn to make count of what you
learned in your respective varsities.i decided to bail out.that's not the main reason,
though.actually,my job's not that mind-blowing.if you take a look at me at work,you'd
think i was the site supervisor.yup.all those years at Skudai,and here i am,running
here and there,ordering stuff,coordinating shit.believe me you,any dude can do this,
it's just that they need someone with a degree.
sure,the job pays well,i'm living with the family and all that "save" factors thrown in,
but is that it?is that all there is?i decided i'd take a break for a while.you know?chill.
travel a little bit,go stir a few things up (he he he),blow mad cash,...well,not exactly
mad cash.more like mad shillings (nanti kena pau mampus aku siol).

the job's not all bad,though.there's the money.not exactly "weighing down your wallet"
but i'm not a heavy spender either.i could buy stuff i only dreamed of when i was younger,
even when i was in Skudai.got me a cool pair of headphones,cable TV,DVD player (which
i later sold because my TV's technology was too obsolete),upgraded my PC,got a pretty
nifty camera (non-digital),and a few things else.yup.you can buy anything when you got
the dosh.what got me pissed,though,was that i could afford to buy car magazines,but
not a car.ha ha ha.very cruel.seriously.

a word of caution,though: money can't buy you happiness.this is serious shit,man.
you'd feel empty inside,and no amount of money could fill that void....................well,
except any amount more than a million euros.

i hadn't exactly plan what i'd do next.maybe i'd find another job elsewhere.i'm kinda
contemplating furthering my studies,for a while.it's just that i feel lost.where's the map?
ha ha.

i also found out two of my high school friends are about to go overseas.yup.go for it,
dude+dudette.i know i would.jangan masuk the sun mukasurat tiga,udah.....

what really matters is you should be doing something that makes you really,really,really
happy.notice that i used 'really' three times.it's not typo,man.this is important shit and on
a lot of occasions,i tend to forget this one crucial thing.

happiness is what really matters.

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funny-hee.....

you are twenty-three, moving on twenty-four.......

happy birthday, rock.

when we met light was shed thoughts free flowed
you said you've got something deep inside of you
a wind chime voice sounds sway your hips round rings true
it echoes deep inside you
secret garden beams, changed my life so it seems
fall breeze blows outside i don't break stride thoughts are warm
they go deep inside of you
and i never felt alone till i met you
i'm allright on my own till i met you
friends say i changed i don't listen cuz i live to be
deep inside of you
slide off her dress shouts in darkness
i'm so alive
it's deep inside of you
you say boy make girl feel good
but still, STILL!
I would change myself if i could
i would walk with my own people if i could find them and i would say
i'm sorry to you, i'm sorry to you, but i don't want to
call you and then i want to call you and i don't want to
crush you but i feel like crushin you and it's
true i took for granted you were with me,
i breathe by your looks and
we were broke and didn't know and
we were broke and didn't know and
we were broke and didn't know and
we were broke and didn't know, I, oh I, oh I . . .
Something's gone you withdraw I'm not strong like before
I was Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere i burn candles and stare
at a ghost
deep inside of you
and some great need in me starts to bleed
i've lost myself there's nothing left
it's all gone
deep inside of you

.....................feeling tak hingat.......he he he....

i want a girl with a short skirt and a long.............

jacket.

na na na na na na
na na na na na na
na na na na na na
na na na na na na

hey hey now?
can you fake it?
can you make it to look like we've won? -------------stacked actors,foo fighters

a piece of advice:

if you really want to buy a good rock album, please consider the foo fighters' 2nd album,
'the color and the shape'.

i went through some users' testimonials in friendster.com, and one particular
testimonial stood out. it read:

"looks can be deceiving".

that is so true.

i expected a crappy weekend, and as usual, it was shitty.so i am happy.

excuse the irony.

there was a special on christina aguilera on MTV at about 9pm.i was a
fan (i'm unsure if i still am) back in the varsity days in UTM, where you
watched, well pretty much, singaporean tv, and they rocked hard, man!
if any of you have the chance, check out TCS5 whenever you're in JB or
anywhere close to singapore.this channel rocks more than any of those
ASTRO channels.then again,maybe i'm saying this out of boredom.
but that's not the point.let's get back to this chick, shall we?

(back then) i admired her because she could sing, and she had a nice
image....as i said, back then.well, people change.

while in second year (in UTM) i had this paper, FLUID MECHANICS, which
was kinda tough, and the only way to score was to ace those tests,which,
was pretty peanuts, provided you look back on the previous examples given
during lessons.i was having a hard time understanding these concepts about
hydraulics energy lines and shit.i decided to watch some tv instead that night.
and the test was less than 8 hours away.

i slept in front of the telly.

(four hours later, close to 4am - 3.55am, actually)

i woke up, groggy and all.decided to check what was on tv.
lo and behold, it was miss christina in 'what a girl wants'!!!mind you, she was
hot that time around, and this video was, like,THE SHIT.

after the clip was over, i felt rejuvenated (don't we all?).i washed my face, and started
hitting them books.i was full of 'semangat', and to my surprise, those darn examples
were kinda easy (lesson learned)......there you go.

i laughed arrogantly.....<-------------no, that didn't happen.

i answered the test confidently that morning, and guess what?i aced it.full marks.yay.

christina aguilera, if you ever read this blog, i just want you to know you were an integral
part of my struggle to get my degree.bar none.

that was, until those japanese actresses came along.