in approximately one week, i will be
travelling to ethiopia.

balik kampung raya.

i am kind of eager to travel there,
since it is beautiful there (although
some might disagree). but the thing is,
it's kind of isolated there. you know.

i know this might sound 'corn'-ey, but
you're fine if you feel alone, but not
if you're feeling lonely.

it's true, you know. i was there last
year for a whole month, and i had a
smittering of the whole 'alone/lonely',
and i gotta tell you,.....

it tugs at your heart, you know. for
example, me, the cold-hearted guy. i felt
some sorrow for being such a distance
from my loved ones.

i think it gets worse once you're
married.

i guess.

but that's another subject.

last weekend was the most shittiest weekend that i have ever experienced.

i've always had crappy weekends, but i never thought i'd experience the
mother of all bad weekends.

for starters, i set out to low yat on saturday to look for some electronics, see? earlier,
my little sister asked me to buy her a laptop so that she could do her assignments on 'em.
so, being thoughtful, i looked for budget laptops there.

i found one.

i bought it. after three hours of walking around, haggling a bit. my feet hurt.

afterwards, i headed straight for where she lived. i decided to surprise her. so i called her first.
i asked her is she still finishing the assignments.

she said she finished them and got no more for the rest of the semester.

in short, i ended up with a 2k laptop that i'll not use.

today, i'm supposed to go to my grandpa's get-together for his bday. it was scheduled at 8pm.

so i went out and bought a gift. and wore my best clothes. and as i went there, i made sure
that i made it early.

i did made it early. 7.56.

i found nobody there. only one of my relatives.

apparently, it was held at 4.30pm. nobody told me. i looked like an idiot.

to sum it up, i arrived 5 minutes early only to find out that i was 4 hours late.

and as i walked back to my car, it started raining.

i decided to get dinner from my favourite stall on the way home.

it was closed.

i ended up with dinner someplace else.

and as i'm writing this, a dvd in my laptop is malfunctioning.

could anyone experience a more horrific weekend? mail me. wish me luck in
opening my mail.

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say

One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One

One

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selamat aidil fitri. maaf lahir batin.
can y'all do me a favor? mail me
your addresses at anwarfahmi@gmail.com.
i want to send out greeting cards.

thanks.

raya's coming. in a few weeks.

i got a 'light purple' baju melayu (oh,
the curse of the light-colored attire)

i always go dark when it comes to baju
melayu. it suits my personality..or the
other way round. some might argue that
the dark tint might make you look
thinner. i prefer to call it 'camouflage'.

this year i'm risking being seen, stood
out.

i had no choice. i'm running out of
colors, you see.

last year, it was green (dark, of course).
before, it was dark red (merah tampuk
manggis). the predecessor was dark
chocolate. yum.

yuk.

i had my share of weird colors.

silver. yuk.
pink. goddamm.
light magenta. i don't know what i's thought.
white. it's not so bad, but it was transparent.

i think this year i'll be comfortable
taking this calculated risk.

let's hope something good will come out
of this.

pray harder !!!!

it's been so long since i wrote something here.
i have been enjoying ramadan, actually.

yeah.

not looking forward to syawal, though.

*sigh.