I'm so much older than I can take "I used to write from 2002-2008. Now I'm contemplating whether to start rambling again..(2020)"
Tuesday, July 24
BLINDING 'HEAD-ACHE' / HEART-ACHE
Friday, July 20
AYUH!
where was i? okay...
alamak baru nak tulih blog, member
ajak minum plak.
ok let's go to belgium beer cafe.
jangan mabok aa!
Thursday, July 19
PERGH!
truth be told, when i was told that i'd be going to an overseas
assignment (way back in March), i was ecstatic. and nervous
as well. (walawei dah pandai guna 'as well').
but then the visa problem kept us from entering, and after a few
months, i was already jaded. i was like 'whatever', and just kept
going and doing the usual work in my department.
but when the news came that i was supposed to go this month.
i felt kind of afraid.i don't know why. it's like as if something's
wrong. maybe it's because i'm going to a new country. maybe
it's because i don't want to go.
maybe i don't want to.
but it's not me to back up on something. maybe i can find an
excuse later on, but i have to do this.
if i'm a superhero, i think this is my weakness.
anyways, to cut things short, my advance got slashed a third.
my tickes wasn't confirmed until the day before. isnin nak pi,
ahad petang terhegeh hegeh lagi kat agent kejar tiket. bab
packing jangan cerita la kan. but anyways, i still managed to
catch the flight.
tiket flight pun satu hal. kt tket tulis royal brunei, tp kat airport
depa inform kena queue kat MAS. gila. nasib baik aku tak tunggu
kat Row J. kalau terlepas flight malu kat orang kampung.
accompanying me to the airport was my mum. i was kinda sad to
leave her. if there's no one sending me off, i'd be fine. but mum's
hugging me tight, and naturally, a few tears were shed.
kesimpulannya dapat jugak naik flight. but kena lepak brunei 2 jam
transit. which is not to my liking. pasaipa? kerna rekod aku hilang
beg semasa transit sangat lah konsisten. kalau hilang time balik
tak la concern sangat. time p kalu ilang. aduii.
yep. by the time the plane arrived in brunei, i was the only guy
wearing a leather jacket. pa wau ya wau. sempat layan wifi sat
(ok jugek brunels ada wifi). nothing much to say except, the
airport tak hingat punya sama dengan airport karachi. serius.
maybe arkitek sama kut. agak old school.
the flight to perth was okay. i was surprised to see brunei airways
provide tv for the economy section. wow. the movie selection was
good. i watched a movie where adam sandler became a recluse
after he lost his family on 9/11. ada don cheadle sekali. i fell
asleep after halfway thru. ngantuk beb.
when the craft descended around 6.30pm, i can see the tangerine
horizon. that's when i realized, 'i'm in aussie'.
kind of understated.
perth perth perth. how do i descibe it. the airport's alright. the
immigration's kinda suspect. i was nervous and there was another
officer asking me questions. thank god, i could. and my bags all
arrived safely! wow. i was expecting some shit to occur at this
point, but i think God loves me.
as i was exiting the terminal, the coldness hit me. it's a bit cold.
it's winter, after all. i got to a taxi and got to holiday inn, and
i forgot to ask for the receipt. damm.
i checked in and went out afterwards, but that's another story.
the conclusion is that, i still have a hard time figuring out why
i am here.
hmm.
Thursday, July 12
WHY DOES 'MY HEART'. FEEL SO BAD.
Others envy me for this. I get chided all the time for this.
But moving closer to it, I feel...uneasy. Apprehensive, even.
I'm a wreck.